well, today is our anniversary. 3 months.
time passes fast, does it not?
i feel... blessed that she is in my life
yet i do not appreciate it?
why is it that when i have to say something
it always comes out wrong?
i dont get it
i dont know why i am like this
and deep inside im not like this
i wanna say sorry
i didnt mean what i say
i didnt mean to do what i did
but whats done is done
i have to change
i have been thinking of what i have been saying
and it has been pathetic.
to me, it all sounds like excuses
sad, pathetic excuses.
why cant i just say what i feel?
why does it always come out wrong?
im in a whirl now, and i dont know why
im lost, in this sea, in the prison known as the heart
why?
its been too long
been too hard
promised that we would go out when fyp ends
did that
but i screwed up
i dont know..
not anymore..
whats happening to me?
i admit..
i dont know how to maintain a long lasting relationship
its confusing to me
i dont know how to commit..
but i really want to..
and its tearing me up inside when i cant see your face,
hear wour voice,
feel your touch,
smell your scent..
everything seems wrong without you around..
so wont you forgive me?
Im sorry..
