Tuesday. fair weather, nice breezes and lots of sunshine. no school today. everything is perfect, except that im not really back at 100%.. more like... 70%. recovering pretty well from the sickness i must say... haha!! its just my body regenerates fast. *good work body* (pats on my own back)
been missing someone.. and that someone is darling.. its been awhile since we last met.. and i wish i could meet you.. we have less and less contact these days.. part of it stemming from the fact that FYP is draggin darling down.. and as a matter of fact... me too. stress and complications. even as im typing this down.. darling is @ school doing her fyp. its kinda hurtful.. seeing her tired and worn out... and sometimes i just want her to smile.. but i dont know what to do.. sometimes she dont eat well too... and well.. i wish i could provide for her.. so she wont suffer like this...
oooh yeah!! im listening to Kids Songs - Elmo Song (Sesame Street).. a song that she sent me back from when we were just friends... before we became a couple. kinda cute to listen to these songs... once again. i used to watch sesame street when i was a kid too... liked oscar though... the depressed green thingy in the trash can. LOL!
u know what... the panadol i took has no effect at all... since young... many tablet medications have had no effectn on me at all... at least... not on a visble level.
well moms back, telling me abt next door. for those who dont know, to my left is my place rented out to a dear aunt, who is an absolute bitch! ahh words cant express how my family feels about her, but thanks to her, we all learnt our lessons. in fact, i can say that she made us all the more aware of backstabbing and the power of liars and the psycological effects among people close to you. well, not that shes close to my family now. shes an outcast. her daughter is also illegitimate. sadly, the only friends she can get is friends she can buy.
well.. just read something depressing on sayangs blog from LONG ago.. way long back. . i tend to be quiet when depressed. but i guess thats normal right? i know i think too much i tend to put things together and conclude and analyze... sometimes i hate myself for being so practical. in fact i did an analysis of myself before and i dont like what i see. i guess its normal for a girl her age to be like that... to feel like that.. but i guess the past dont matter.. does it? bleah.. i blame myself. ok! i shalt not read any further... for both our sakes. but still it hurts when she says the words "i love you" to someone else.. and when says she misses someone else too. arrgh!!
