so im blogging after this time... no idea.. i just have somethings on my chest, and its draggin me down to my grave... im so so exhausted, so so tired of things the way they are... so tired of everything...
ah mah went to the hospital today... for unknown reasons, everyone is worried about her, and i dont know how shes feeling right now.. =( i wanna visit her tomorrow, dun care, i will skip work n shiet to visit her..
then again, im tired.. tired of putting up a show to everyone, tired of acting happy all the time, tired of trying to be there for people when they need someone just to talk to or wadever. im sick of it. no one appreciates anything, no one understands. in the end, im just like a doormat to em..
pierced my ear on tuesday, was expecting it to hurt, but surprise surprise, it didnt. in another few days i will change the stud to something more presentable... why did i pierce it? dunno, just felt like it. temporary insanity. going to pierce again in another few weeks, this time, gunna put a ear clip along the ear.
met charles today, n god, it is good to have a intelligent and non scarstic responses. so much ifferent from the usual yada yada from the people @ worK, poly n such.
i missed the UT on tues coz i was late. recently... i have been waking up late, no motivation... sad... why?
dont smile when u dun feel like it rite... i dun wanna wear a fake smile anymore...
JONS wishlist for by BD in a couple of months (UPDATED) ...
Armani Xchange Jacket - $320
Armani Xchange Jeans - $250
Bata Suede shoes - $30 - Bought
Guess Metal Sports Watch - $300 - Bought, but price was waaaay off. ($1200)
Levi Jeans 501 Scarred - $120 - Decided i could live W/O it
Levi Metal Buckle Belt - $55 - Decided i could live W/O it
Zippo Playboy Lighter - $60 - Jody has got it already~
Digital Camera - $300-500
so left 3 items... all damn ex.. so i guess i will have to buy em myself... haha... think xpect too much for birthday prezzies la... wake up la jon...
AHHH screw it!! i will end the blog here.. and go have a bottle of blue label or something strong to knock me out... save me..
