cant sleep. alotta things bothering me... thinking about the UT's, work, personal stuff n such.
cancelled on meeting wenxing on sun... was kinda hopin 2 meet her 2.. but smth happened... then lost the mood... so... cancelled. didnt feel like going out... so just made an excuse n...
my mind is in a blank. for no apparent reason. dont know why. dont know wad to do. its kinda... boring and bleak. haiz.. dont know.. in fact... dont wanna know.. somehow.. i just wanna float in this oblivion... its better that reality. @ least... im in my own world... been building a brick wall around me for some time now... actually... im a loner.. prefer to be alone... Lone Wolf. isolation is an ally i guess.. *shrugs*
helped mom cut down a tree today... that helped me blow off some steam... kill time... kill boredom. ahhhh the guys were right. i be needing a woman to bring out da best in me... damn crappy. i can only rely on myself.... be stronger... much stronger..
hates to rely on others... i dont wanna be a burden.
since i have time to kill... been polishing the swords... arrgh.. they have gotten dirty... =( gotta get some oil to clean the blades... and... find a workman to refit the scabbard... for cryin out loud... the sheath got cracked! omfg.. dont know how..
also... i wish 7th month will be over soon... alotta creepy things happened recently.. and i dont really wanna see them... i admit it.. im scared... ever since the incident @ 8... in the house... haiz... why? dont know if its a blessing... or curse..
why does so much shit happen to me?
@ least i know im not the worse out there...
