Watched Kimi Ga Nozomu Eien today… haiz.. another unexpectedly sad animation work. Love, friendship, betrayal and a sleeping girl for 3 yrs… perfect plot for a drama… strange though… I felt something for the anime.. impressive… since I have no heart left in me for such a long time… somehow… it disturbs me….
Strange things are happening again… strangely sad… something happened today… actually… kinda know that it will happen sooner or later… but… haha… as usual… was totally unexpected. Aww well jon, just suck it up like a man and move on, ur a man… things that fail to kill u just make u stronger. Like wad she said… a heart torn into a thousand pieces will mend itself once again… how true… haven’t been hurt for a while actually… the feeling… the familiar feeling… seems…. Exquisite
Gone are the good days…
Meeting the yishun turtles tomorrow… haven’t met em in ages… and.. by right… we cant be called the yishun turtles anymore… since we all have split up… brotherhood is breaking… I can tell… I have been there… done that… haven’t felt happy… for the longest time…
my head hurts… feeling damn strange now…wads happening? Empty… so empty that it scares me… if I have to become a demon again… so be it… u know… thinking about the old legends I have heard about from so so long ago… from oaths, promises, convictions of a better world… warriors sayings… like… “ there is a place for fallen warriors over the mountain… the honorable fallen lie there… spending eternity in the beauty, for that is what the loyal deserve…”
7th month is back… as are the headaches… I can also feel the effects already… left arm going outta control…twitching and such… always like this during this cursed month… maybe it’s a sign I wont have much longer? Death comes to all… but if I must… I want it to be a place and time of my choosing… at least… I hope I can be granted that if, no… when… the time comes.
I know what must be done.
