its YS bd today... happy bd bro! hahahaha later meeting aT 7 at yishun... gotta remember to bring da prezzie. well well, life has been ok for some time... but the working aspect has been draining me of energy... jody is upset, joell quit, wyann has an attitude.. though shes pretty, but aww well. dont have a character to match.
working at bishan outlet now...i feel so left out... maybe im working in an almost girl environment. i just cant click like before... and something is missing. i felt that the spilt moment i came back to work in the sch hols.
last night, still went to play soccer with some friends... at around 3am. lol. madness. jasper has been askin me out for swimming and badminton... gotta find time... hahaha.. otherwise will gain more weight... cham cham.
im worried abt my sch grades... at least for enterprise i got it good... though i got a B, miss shaheeda said
"As I have mentioned to you before, you are an excellent example of a self-directed learner. I can always depend on you to come up with different ideas. Initially, you came across to me as arrogant because you always seem to be inattentive and disruptive in class. But with time, you've shown that you actually pay attention behind those closed eyes of yours. Try to pick up as many lessons from your mum. It is definitely worth more than classroom lessons." lol. im so proud.
yeah...perhaps im like what she said... arrogant and cocky. haiz.. occupational hazard.. why? i also dunno... maybe its inbred? had a dream today... about someone special... dreamt we were in back in japan.. in the suburbs... and she went to visit my mother... she said she also had a back injury... n i rubbed it for her... i remember i was happy... then i woke up..
are dreams the foretellers of the future? i certainly hope so.. in some dreams i am in bliss... others, pure agony.. i remember for a period of time.. i had dreams for a week, and i was crying throughout all of them... all right, enough of this. jon.. jon.. think positive! ^^
shifting attention to politics and current affairs... whats happening in the world lately? China and taiwan again, US and terrorists, S.E.A with bird flu, Africa with food shortage, drought and disease... Singapore with more assets being tied overseas, which is a double edged sword. think about it..
nothing good happening throughout the world eh?
boring singapore, what is there here to do? im dreaming of the lush fields in japan.. the sky, the stars, and the people... in singapore, u can hardly find a place to sit and think without being bothered... im still lookin for peace and tranquility in here... the stars are one thing i miss... i remember in japan and australia, the stars there were bright, and calling me... alluring me... they were bright and i was able to read the stars since i was a very young age.. natural i guess.. angelia loved the stars too... too bad i didnt have a chance to watch it with her. i was a terrible bf wassnt i? i've changed... and even my sis said that now i treat the girlsi love with so much care and concern... she even said that if she had a bf like me... she would be blesssed... i beg to differ... i may be good.. but i know my objectives in life too... the girl must be understanding... or she will suffer..
i wonder why so many people in singapore are trying to follow our way of life, our dressing and such... they dont know that we are also trying to follow them... irony...
cheque banked in already, KA-CHING!!! $$$$$ =D clubbing time!!!
i have alotta vices dont i? though i dont smoke, no drugs, no gambling, no errr red light activities, i still have some things that i do that people might find well, negative. i go clubbing, i drink a little, and im obnoxious. i aint that sensitive, and i tend to think alot... think too much in fact. im disruptive and sometimes... hard hearted... and to an extent, evil.. i lost my conscience a long time ago... and now, even ed, says i have no heart for the lesser people. "lesser people" see? im thinking im superior. why? intellect? wealth? knowledge? sometimes i dont even know why i act like im like them... but gotta adapt to survive... so i just hide the high class side of me.
i wonder what people think of me? my first impression aint good... and i dont socialise, people usually have to break the barrier between I and them, before i start talking. but then after that, we become friends. i wonder why i cant make the first move... maybe im scared? hmmph. maybe there is a soft scared side of me that sometimes scream for help... but... i must learn to be strong in this world i live in. for now, i guess a gf is going to be out of the question, as i concentrate on greater plans..
i wonder if i will find happiness one day?
