all right... bd over... things went well ^^ then after that... tribal council at raffles again... did alot oF thinking... and some stuff of what they were saying made sense... lol. i had a counselling session yesterday... had fun... also had a little test done on me...
also... i confirmed something that i had been suspecting all along... i dun mind being alone. i can happily be alone... in peace and i dont need human company of any sort. great eh? lol. no worries and no cares... humans are difficult creatures, its like a chess game when u are dealing with them. one wrong move, and ur screwed!
gotta work later at 4... hAiz... im sick and tired of it... at least... later after work, there is a party at jody's ^^ yay! been going to parties and chilling out for so many days already... but im tired... the late nights and long hours... arrgh. i need a breaK... tomorrow going shopping AGAIN, dis time with the guys..lol... Levi Jeans.. T Shirts,
SHOES are all the things i need to get... also the radio i promised myself i wanna get... =(
so much to buy, so little cash to buy. dun wanna use mom's cash, learning to be independent. Angelia smsed me ystd night.. asking a vv strange Q.. why am i workin so hard? the ans is stated above... independence. why is she playin these lil mind games even now? i dun deny i still feel alot for her... but its tiring.. and im scared... when she smses me.. i get breathless, when she calls i feel so out of sorts, and when i meet her... my eyes water already.. coz of her.. i made so many mistakes too... she hurt me.. and i hurt others... the cycle goes on... fear... yes...i truly fear her. im afraid coz she hurt me so deeply..long long ago... and im scared she will do the same again...
Life is terrible... i dont know why others envy mine.. im suffering in silence... and nobody knows it but me...
